Gw termasuk orang yang cuek, yang gak suka mikirin sesuatu lama-lama. Gak pernah mau pusing sama urusan apapun. Stress gak pernah ada dalam hidup gw, but then, beberapa minggu ini, i loss 3 kg of my weight. Seneng donk mestinya…. tapi gw enggak, gw heran sendiri karena gw makan biasa aja, bahkan bisa dibilang banyak. Tapi berat gw malah turun terus….. Tiap pagi bangun rasanya males banget kerja.
Try to analyze my symptoms, i guess i was stress out. Mencoba berpikir hal-hal apa yang bikin gw sampe stress begini. Padahal kata-kata Stress gak pernah ada dalam kamus gw sebelumnya. Or i never realize it before.
Berpikir dan berpikir mencoba menemukan apa yang bikin gw kayak gini. then t i found my heart-broken. Yup gw patah hati…..bukan diputusin atau di duain. Tapi dilewatkan…..
So there is one guy that attract me badly. He’s not handsome, but with his great humour, great thinking, and good speaker. I adore him so much. Don’t know when was the exactly time i let my heart and my mind are filled by him. i started to crush on him secretly. We’re a good friend, we talk, we laugh we share many things. He has the same dream with me, same thought with me.Sometimes without any confirmation we can read others mind. Shortly, we’re so connected.
Unfortunately, only me that have those thought. he didn’t think the way i am. So one day he met this girl, he told me about the girl, how he attract with her, how he felt the same way as the girl’s feeling. And i just feel like ” Dude, I’m here”
Perasaan gw berantakan, ini adalah patah hati terburuk gw. Never feel like this before. I do keep contact with him. He still thought that i am his best friend. And me? gw tetep pretending to be his ” best friend” tapi ternyata hati gw belum ikhlas. Yang ada gw bener-bener berantakan. Tubuh gw pun ikutan stress.
I was in the condition, which i can describe as a desperate girl who thought she find her soulmate but he don’t think so.
I lost 4 kgs of my weight, let my self aloof. and being so messed up. But then in one moment i know i have to relieve it….it won’t be healthy for me……..
although my mind sometimes betray me by think of him. Wonder myself with him….but life still go on right. I know those must sound so pathetic. But at least i’ve said what i have said right?
Even it still hard….just let time heal…..
